hello my ohso wonderful world.
thankyou for inventing tortures such as exams.
thankyou for killing many trees just to create homework.
thankyou for letting people get eyebags just to study through the night.
thankyou for giving people headaches when they are stressed.
thankyou for every tomorrow which is worse than the day before.
thankyou for teachers who are fishballing mean.
thankyou for answers behind every question.
thankyou for creating a world with rights and wrongs.
thankyou for negleting the well being of one and focusing only on education.
thankyou for bringing me into this world to suffer.
thankyou for everything that i don't really appreciate in the end.

fishballs.
to my mummy,
there's only a slightest percentage that you'll read this but if you ever do,
i just wanna say im sorry.
i totally screwed up my exams and the subjects im absolutely confident of passing is probably physics and maths.
im only talking about passing, not even getting a freaking A.
i think ive really learnt an important lesson through this midyear exams.
don't start doing everything last minute, its too late.
i promise promise never to sleep in class.
im determined to do well now. im determined to prove myself that im not blind.
im determined to show that i can cope with what i have.
im determined to show you that what you always say when you demoralise me is not true.
im determined to show you that i am dependent on myself.
anyway, as the child who you claim to bring you most trouble and probably you hate the most,
im determined to prove to you that i am the best and i freaking don't care if you think otherwise.

and as the english passage in my mye says, parents often try to live their dreams through their children, often neglecting the child's own ambitions.
honestly, im not smarter than the rest as you think i am, so stop piling high expectations on me.
if a man can carry the burden of a mountain, i would like to see it.
cause fyi, i can't even open a freaking milk tea bottle.
don;t expect too much from me.
and do not, do not ever make me continue something that i don't want to.
im just gonna say it here.
i don't wanna play the violin anymore and msp is a serious waste of time.
don't say i didn't forewarn you.
you say im giving up and you say this is a waste.
but i tell you what, im wasting even more every tuesday and thursday night.
you say if i keep doing this in life im gonna be a failure.
fine, i am a loser anyway, but by saying this you're telling me that there are many people who have given up things they can;t go on, so you;re saying they are losers too.
fine fair enough, cause in the world everyone is a loser.
don't keep saying those kind of stuff cause you yourself never practice what you preach.

2 more days til exams over!
ALGAE and LAURA ah! on thursay the last song no more alrd eh!
how?!!!! wanna watch shrek 3 instead or sth.
my gosh!!! so annoying! one more day also cannot!

W.
you know you mean quite alot to me.
i can't go on watching her keep hogging on you.
please, im begging you don't be influenced by that alien.
she keeps aliening about everyone and everything.
she doesn't even know that she does not have tre friends.
her so called friends alien about her too.
im not saying that im a perfect friend for you, i know i can be alien myself.
but ive watched one by one the people go down and turn out to be monsters themselves.
you're innocent, and you're smart.
please please please, extract yourself from her games, before its too late.


sugar.
i love you when you're nice and innocent.
but when those vulgar words come out, you're a total alien.
do not turn into another her.
one is enough to destroy the world, we don't need another.

D. we're drifting, come back.

i wished you goodluck in my heart.
i wondered if you heard it.
you'll always have a place there, even if it hurts me.

funfact.
this is for the people who like to call others bitches:
well a bitch is a dog, and dogs bark.
barks come from trees and trees are part of nature.
nature is beautiful, so yeah, thanks for the compliment.

im closing my eyes and ears to everything you all say.
cause nothing is gonna sway me.
yes, you all do make some sense, but its not right to do this.
i still love her, don;t degrade her like that.

did i mention how much i love elephants? BUUIIWWW!

bring it on world. who says i don't dare to face you?