don't let the darkness get you, its not worth it.

honesty is honestly the hardest

Monday, June 28, 201011:16 PM

Lying next to you
Wishing I could disappear
Let you fall asleep
And vanish out into thin air

It's the elephant in the room
And we pretend that we don't see it
It's the avalanche that looms above our heads
And we don't believe it

Trying to be perfect
Trying not to let you down
Honesty is honestly
The hardest thing for me right now
While the floors underneath our feet
Are crumbling, the walls we built together tumbling
I still stand here holding up the roof
Cause it's easier than telling the truth

I still keep your photographs
I remember how we used to laugh
I can keep on losing sleep
If you're okay with being torn in half

It's the elephant in the room
And we pretend that we don't see it
It's the avalanche that looms above our heads
And we don't believe it

Trying to be perfect
Trying not to let you down
Honesty is honestly
The hardest thing for me right now
While the floors underneath our feet
Are crumbling, the walls we built together tumbling
I still stand here holding up the roof
Cause it's easier than telling the truth

Stop ignoring that our hearts are mourning
And let the rain come in
Stop pretending that it's not ending
And let the end begin, oh yeah...

Trying to be perfect
Trying not to let you down
Honesty is honestly
The hardest thing for me right now, yeah
While the floors underneath our feet
Are crumbling, the walls we built together tumbling
I still stand here holding up the roof
Cause it's easier than telling the truth
It's easier than telling the truth

i really love my mummy alot.

i should give her more credit.

thank you thank you very much.

thank you for understanding,

for not beating me up,

for not scolding me,

for saying well done,

for saying you'll help me (to find a tutor for chem - i asked for it),

for saying that no matter what marks i get you can't change anything, so might as well don't solve things with violence,

for encouraging me,

for caring for me,

for buying porridge when you know i can't eat much ( thanks to braces),

for just being there,

for being my mother.

so many lies, so many tears, so many empty promises.

im sorry.

im gonna work hard, and no not another broken motivation.

im gonna work hard, real hard.

im gonna get my As oh yes i will.

its not easy to tell you the truth, especially if white lies content you (without your knowledge).

im gonna try, im gonna try.

i hope you can keep this calm facade when you know the rest of my results.

cause the worse have yet to come.

for now, i love you(:

oh, and thankyou algae and yingyi!

for macs, and just for being there.

yalayala all do so well!

i hope i didn't kill you with the salty fries!:X

eclipse on friday on ya?

i shall end here.

my new fave songs:

- the truth, kris allen (above lyrics) notice the ELEPHANTS mentioned(:

- gravity, pixie lott

- never say never, justin bieber and *gasp* jaden smith:DDDD

- airplanes, B.O.B feat. hayley williams

get well soon people, don't fall sick!

its not fun anymore!

i must believe;

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