okay, i think i finally know how to upload videos.
this is the vid i wanted to upload previously.




watching this video, you'll see that people's problems all revolve around worries of war and stuff like that.
and here we are acting like 5 year olds playing childish games fighting over nothing.
this reminds me of salt, the angelina jolie movie.
about politics and assassins, and world issues.
yuppps, so seriously, my problems, your problems are nothing close to those.
and then maybe, maybe, we shouldn't keep kicking each other's butts when we see each other.
we shouldn't say bad things behind their backs.
if there's anything, just say it out right.
but then again, sometimes, its difficult to express our views.
cause you know they ain't gonna bother anyway.

sometimes, i really feel like punching.
your attitude flat out sucks. you contradict yourself.
you are not a leader. you are just an arrogant freak with big big humongous pride who does not practice what you preach.
yeah, i'm beginning to doubt your ability, sorry.

dance.
ive lost my passion. laoshi talked about that today.
is that why i'm not improving. is that why i am standing at ground zero while the rest climb above me? faster and better?
i really don't know.
but when a fire dies, i know its possible to relight it again.
rekindle its flame, just like how i will try to find the reason i joined dance in the first place.
i want to show laoshi that no matter how shitty i dance, i can at least still dance.
unlike those who claim they can but really, sorry to break the truth to you you can't.
so stop trying to act like you are really good cause it just makes me feel like vomitting.


to all the sec3 dancers,
whether you read this or not,
thanks for everything(:
i know its hard, its annoying and it demoralising,
but thanks for not giving up. (i shall ignore all your comments about how much dance sucks)
we're all, and i mean all 10 of us, gonna go through syf together.
yes, we may not be all that brilliant, lacking the potential of other sec3s, or maybe even our current sec2s and 1s, but we will strive to do our best,
we will pesevere through all the shit that comes in our way.
we will not step on diarhoea (however you spell it) and cry.
we will step on it and laugh laugh laugh.
i know this doesn't make sense but whatever! HEHEHEHEHE:B
i love you all alot, no matter what happens!(:

i feel like breaking down and crying sometimes.
no one will understand how i feel.
i wanna quit msp. please let me, i'm begging you.
violin exam in 2 weeks! gotta chiong.
i wanna pass with flying colours this time.
show the world that even i'm such a failure, miracles to happen!