here's a list of what's left to do of my sad september hols life:
- 1 amaths paper
- half a chem paper
- half a zuowen
- 5 more history essays

after a hardcore 5 maths paper from 2pm all the way to almost 9, excluding dinner time, i finally mamanged to scrape through my maths paper.
not to mention letting a few teras escape due to my inability to complete most of the questions.
i swear now that i will not pass maths at all, seeing how it used to be my fave subject and all, oh and not to mention my best subject, i shall fail the rest of my studies.
whats there to lose?
just either retake sec3, or get kicked out of cedar, or totally quit school and be some toilet cleaner when i grow up.
yeah. nothing to lose at all.

okay, i shall stop being negative.
working on my history essays now.
gonna hardcore til forever.
at least i can look forward to a japanese treat for dinner! thankyou ahyi i love you alot!
and mummy's coming home at 1am! WOOHOOO!
wonder what she bought for me(:

oh, i shall mention again:
i refuse refuse refuse to study stalin at all! sorry miss lizah but communism does not suit me!

here's a list of what i have decided will do before i die:
(thats what happens when your dad picks you up late from violin practice and you are bored with nothing to do!)
1) wear a clown's costume, mascot etc
2) jump in mud (can't believe my bro beat me to this)
3) sky and deep sea diving
4) get a merit for my violin exams (yeah, now you know how terrible i am)
5) wear a gown, those kind of usa prom party style. it'll be cool!
6) climb a mountain, like mt kinabalu
7) go see wild polar bears, did i mention i love animals?(:
8) oh and the most terrifying one of all, have the guts to kill a cockroach, or any insect for that matter. i think yy can agree with me on this one, that its actually quite difficult to achieve this.
9) travel round the world
10) go to all the disneylands in usa hongkong, wherever it may be

yeah something like that.
especially number 3! i wanted to do that like forever.
i hope i don't chicken out when the time comes.

before i end my post of ramblings, actually, its really a breather to break off from all the tedious homework. (trying to keep this as long as possible!)
tuesday night was probably one of the best nights i had in ages.
i mean fun night, whatever. even though it lasted for about half an hour.
i owe to my brother and his friend, reuben actually.
thanks people! you two sure know how to make people laugh and smile!
well, other than the fact that you made me chase after the ball and all around the estate, scream into the night and probably waking up the rest of the world, almost fall into the pool, kept poking me til i almost died laughing, failed arm wrestlings that i could have won if i'm a guy too.
point to note: do not play with 2 boys younger than you by 1 year. they can be dangerous!

hahaha, but in the end, this is what my bro said to me today.
you are a quite horrible sister, i like cheryl jie jie better.
she's the best.
although i may seem unconcerned, but somehow these words got to me.
i mean he didn't even say it cause he's angry with me or anything.
he said it over lunch when we were just having a casual chat.
hais whatever. i'm a terrible person anyway, to begin with.

going off now.
wish someone would just take me off the boredom, the pain, the suffering.
wish it was THAT someone.