i knew i shouldn't have said those things.
and now you're just gonna use those words on me ver and over again.
its never going to end is it?
you're never going to forget are you?
its just not going to be that easy for me right?
i'm feeling more suffocated by the minute.
what exactly do you want from me?

ahwell, there's nothing i can say or do now.
blame that 2As, 4Bs, 1 C and 1 E on my wonderful report book.

well, on the brighter note,
i watched glee season 2 episode 1 today and got to catch a glimpse of chord sexy overstreet's hot body and harry shaum jr's. (idk how to spell him name)
HAHAHA! heart attack!
and i watched vamp diary 1st episode.
wasn't all that interesting but its the first episode only..

and thank you margie for these pictures!
i really lovelove love you alot!((:
though you don't read this, thanks for always smsing me and cheering me on!
and cheering me up too when you THINK i'm down!
HAHAHA! and you never asked me why and whats wrong.
you're just there for me to bullshit to!
so yeah, i love you alot! as much as chord overstreet!(:

and i'm sorry it never worked out okay?
i'm sorry things ended like that. you can just blame me.
sometimes things just get wrong, and it never patches up.
i hope you understand.

my most beloved!
chord chord chord overtstreet! chord chord chord overstreet!
(say this in the harry potter version's tune. like the "snape snape severes snape dumbledore!")



yes i'm a stalker but at least the person i'm stalking is really really cute!:D

Listen from glee (charice)
Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete
Listen to the sound from deep within
Its only beginning to find release
Ohh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen

HAWHAWHAW!
my new love, chord overstreet((:

AHahahaha! isn't he very cuteeee!
he plays Sam Evans in glee season two!
yay!

one day it was all tears, and the next everything seems sunny and fine again.
thankyou for not making it so difficult for me.

love delta'10!<3

yesterday...
it was the first time i cried for so long.
it was the first time i locked myself in a room for so long.
it was the first time i really contemplated killing myself and ending my life.
it was the first time i shouted and poured out my heart, everything i've kept within me for so long.
it was the first time i saw my mum so hurt and broken.
it was the first time i saw my dad cry.

you know, sometimes i really hate myself.
for being me, for being what i am, who i am.
i can never meet the expectations of anyone.
i am a horrible daughter.
i cause a lot of problems.
i'm sorry to everyone i have hurt.

today, i really prayed very hard at church.
very hard for everyone i know and love.
i prayed that everyone would have their wounds and pain healed by the touch of God.
i prayed for those who are lost in their lives right now, to be blessed by God.
and for everyone to be filled with happiness again.
it was the first time i kneeled down and cried and felt truly sad.

you know, i just have to think of yesterday, and i can cry right there and then.
i remembered screaming and crying, "i don't want to get hurt again".
i'm gonna guard my heart from now on.
cause sometimes, really, its just so hard to live the life i want to live.
this is reality, this is the true world.
i think i see it now.

"no one is worth your tears, and the one who is won't make you cry..."

lovelovelove study dates with the most awesomest friends in the world!
yingyi, xiantong, algae, margie and whenxin!
<3

AHAHAHA! i feel so embarassed for you, seeing you running half naked in your red swimming trunks. heh:P

hmm, have you ever wondered what is hate?
why do people hate? and how come people can say they hate someone else so easily?
you know what i think? i say people hate cause they are jealous about something.
i mean why else would they go around bitching to others about that someone?
why should they waste their effort trying to convicve another how slutty that person is?
or go around spreading some dead shit rumour that is as its called, just a rumour?
aren't they overwasting their time, their breath, their energy on a person that they claim to hate?
i shall PEEL to state my point yo.
like how i hate algae cause she's always so daring enough to do what she wants to do, like kiss teachers?
and i hate yingyi cause she's so smart and unknowingly pretty and i can't go for recess without her?
and margie cause she's like the most bestest nicest friend i've ever met?
or have the innocence and purity in mind that yixin has?
or maybe wanxin for her so awesomely talented art skills?
and just to name a few more, my own sister for her retardedness and cuteness?
irene cause she's so cool and dances damn well?
my wifey cause she's damn pretty that even when she says she's lesbian she can still get guys hot after her?
i will never achieve many of these things cause they are not a part of who i am.
but thats the point isn't it? everyone has their own things.
so if she's bitchy then whatever, accept someone for who she is.
don't go around bitching about the person just cause you're jealous of maybe her social circle, or her beauty, or cause she can do things better than you.
of course, unless that person that you 'hate' has done something that has threatened your life or something, i have no right to stop you for your hatred.
but don't you think this is so primary school where you have those cat fights about 'hey, this is my best friend, don't steal her away' sort of shit.
its damn childish. its okay if you're just trying to help someone you know.
but its not when all you think is about yourself, and you never know who you hurt in that process in getting your own benefit.

yeah, and if you're rolling your eyes over this, then there's nothing i can say.
but deep down inside, you know what i mean.
and just one more thing, i care for my friends okay, so if you ever hurt any of them, you're just going down. oh wait, what have i just taught to everyone in the world who might read this? oh right, you're not even worth it.
(i'm not specifically talking about anyone here, like noone in mind as i type this. but if you are reading this and somehow feel like i'm talking about you, then i'm gonna have to apologise for that feeling you're feeling and tell you to go and reflect your actions. hey i'm not here to tell you what to do cause im not your mother, i just wanna make some things clear. for all you know, i may have just saved someone's life.)

oh and i just recently found out.
there are two types of people who reads my blog.
one, people who are sincerely concerned with my well being and interested in my life.
or two, people who just can't wait to see me fall, and see how i rage over someone that hates me. but you know what, im not gonna give you that joy. (what sadists!-.-)

if the world one day goes against me, you know, i'm not gonna be scared, i'm not gonna back down. i'm not even gonna flinch.
cause i know there are people who will be behind me, lending me the strength i need.

after watching a-team for the second time, my new inspiration is Gandhi.

"A coward is incapable of exhibiting love; it is the prerogative of the brave."

"Hatred ever kills, love never dies; such is the vast difference between the two.
What is obtained by love is retained for all time. What is obtained by hatred proves
a burden in reality for it increases hatred."

barbie dolls.
and my sister just farted.