i got sick today!
idk whether to be happy or not.
happy cause i didn't have to go for dance or rafting.
sad cause i wouldn't be able to go for dance or rafting.
lol! i think i caught a cold yesterday, and i have been sneezing the whole day!
not to mention stupid "nose bleed" of watery stuff stuff/
URGH!

hais! i'm so exhausted.
so tired of everything.
weary, mentally and physically.
aching everywhere after dance, especially for the SOD.
i'm sorry i am not born flexible, i can't do splits, and i really don't wanna force myself.
so then, if i can hardly do a full split on normal ground, how do you expect me to over split?
and i am not a ballerina, i never fared well in ballet.
so i cannot do turns for nuts, let alone spot.
i also have back problems apparently, and there you are, breaking my back!
hais! maybe once in awhile this should be fine..

and then i realised how hard it is to gain laoshi's approval.
like me and algae down there wishing and wishing trying our best just to hear laoshi say okay.
or thankyou. but it never really happen did it?
HAISSSSSSS! its getting so tiring!!!!

and what open house? what chalet? what coals? what this? what that?
i wish i am not me.
i really do.
maybe because of all these things, thats why i fell sick today.
maybe its a way of my body telling me, its time to take a break.
its time to rest, and time to give myself some time.
and that is why i slept the day off today! YAY!

anyway, i'm so looking forward to shopping with suyu tomorrow!
and then going to celebrate yy's birthday! HAHAHAHA!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YINGYI in advance!
i love you alot, my retarded sister, hate-creepy-crawlies-and-insects partner, canteen person, love mike chng (or used to) person! HEH:x
can't think of anymore for now but ohwell!




take a deep breath, and keep it all in.
letting it all out, would only worsen things.

yay! olevels is finally over, though i have felt neutral throughout.
never really studied! thats my biggest regret!
now i just hope i won't get anything below an A2 or A1 even.
cause that would just break my heart and i'll know that i deserved it.
since when no effort brings you good sweet success?

ohwell.
went out with an awesome bunch of friends!
it just made me realise how i really can't live without them.
cause i wouldn't be laughing so crazily until i start tearing up.
or when my eyes start to disappear, or until my cheeks hurt.
yeah, they are the greatest!
and no, please don't get ego people! HAHAHA!

but then again, things change fast.
people change fast.
all i can hope now, is for the best.

hey you, yes you.
i just read your blog and i don't like what is writes.
seriously, as much as i try and hate to feel this way or say this,
you're just horrible and you totally disgust me.
first things first, stop trying to state sacarstic comments.
if you think you're better than other people, than PROVE IT.
actions speak much louder than words. stop complaining, its getting old.
stop sucking up to people cause its kind of gross.
don't stick your ass at other people's face, its kind of annoying.
yes, i know you are lonely and have no friends.
i'm really trying to bear it, and okay fine, this is you.
and as your friend i shall try to respect what you do, and how you act.
but then again, maybe telling you how i feel will help you?
i really don't know.
i'm not sure if you know i am talking about you, but i hope you do.

on the better side,
i lovelovelove today's lunch.
like comeon man!
a sparrow is a small chicken,
a turkey is a big chicken,
an ostrich is a bigger chicken.
and turkey looks like peacock!
goose equals duck equals swan?
turkey turkey turkey. HAHAHAHAHA!
talking shit and laughing it all out makes me feel so happy!
i love my crazy friends!
plus stealing margie's shoe and emabarassing myself in front of my own campers!
EPIC MAN!

6 more days to chinese olevels!
its dawning on me now.
thats like 5 compos a day for me from now on!'
wanna get an a1, gotta get my a1!
its the only way for me now.

my first chem tuition at 6pm.
shit how?

i'm forever yours..... faithfully.