okay, so its another 2 and a half more hours before 2010 comes to an end.
i have nothing much to say, cause the past is the past, i live for the present, and shall anticipate only the future.

so, all i'm gonna say is,
thank you to those who made me feel happy, blessed and awesome this year.
i'm gonna miss those times.
i'll forgive those who made me cry, angry and sad,
i don't want to live with regrets.
i'll apologise to those i've hurt, offended and wounded,
i hope you forgive me.

just a few friends to name that have been there for me through this wonderful year,
yixin, yingyi, margie, wanxin, dancers, laura, peyling, yurda, CCY, chloe, weeming, cheuklam, jiale, nurin (and some others from 3I)
and my beloved seniors, who i'll always look up to,
celestine, celine, lingyi, aliah, matilda, shaomin, xinyun and others who have encouraged me constantly.
thank you for being there when i needed you, to give me advise when i'm at a loss, to pick me up when i fall down, to laugh with me during those awesome times, to hear me rant and cry.
i love you guys!(:

now for the NEW YEAR RESOLUTION!!!!
hmm, this is my most general one luh huh.. the more personal one, is somewhere else...
HAHAHA!
(in no order)
1) 2011 will be more amazing and awesome and kickass as 2010, i hope to cry less this coming year, less hurt, less worries, more strong, more happy, more talllllll!
2) i wanna pass olevels and all prelims with good results. i'm not expecting the best, just as well as i can, which i hope is enough. (olevels single digit AHHHHHHHH)
3) all my family and friends will be happy always.
4) YUP! if i can be taller, i want to be taller, at least 160cm. i'll will try!!
5) syf'11 GWH! i don't want my batch to break the trend)): then irene and i will be the worst p and vp of dance ever!!!! i want to dance better!!!!!
6) grow prettier!
7) get to know God better
8) meet that special someone
9) to learn to be obedient, to understand, to care, to love more.
10) no vulgarities!!! (NOOOO! don't tempt me!!!)

okay, please let my resolutions come through!(:

laugh your heart out, dance in the rain,
cherish the moment, ignore the pain.
live, laugh, love,
forgive and forget.
life's too short,
to be living with regrets.

ALGAE! THIS IS FOR YOU!
i've known you for so long now, its almost a full 3 years! (and counting)
you know,
i have been annoyed by you,
i hated you before,
i was hated by you,
i smiled because of you,
i have laughed because of your retarded shitness,
i became crazy since i've met you,
we were the crazy duo in 1H/ 2H,
we were the senior stalking losers,
we were the cam-whoring cmi models,
we have walked up on school stage and embarassed ourselves during a school event,
(i wonder if you can remember, on express yourself day '09)
we have become the HSM couple wannabe, the failed can i have this dance actresses,
we have tried to become the ohsoawesome and cute couple in glee,
the don't stop believing shit during sectionals or regionals or whatever song thingy,
we are the failed cannot compare to yy's prettiness, and just accept that fact,
we are the OHYAYSHOPPING, nice dresses, HEELS! OMG HEELS! and go crazy trying to run the store down!
newlook, forever 21, mani pedi cinderella shop, we just run the place down with yy,
call us ahlians, bitches, whores, plastic, fake, WHATEVER!
cause we are who we are right?

so, i just wanted to tell you to stay strong always.
i know you are tall alrd (though i still believe i may catch up someday...) but continue to stand tall,
don't let anything get you down,
don't let your life get you down,
try to stay positive and as happy and lame and gay forever okay?
cause no matter how much i get annoyed and fustrated at you (i'm saying everything honestly, i hope you don't get offended),
i still love you, and you are one of my best friends ever!
yes, i love you just the way you are! (now don't get ego)

if you were here now with me, i would hug you and thank santa (since its christmas) that i have you as a friend.
i'm sorry if i have not played my role well, but i'll keep trying.

thank you for everything you have done for me(:


i hope you smile when you read this, whether you do read this or not.

and here's to the past few years with you that happens to be in my comp.
believe me, i've chosen the glammest ones, or at least i tried to serach and choose carefully!

i loved this picture when i was sec 1! (did you know i put this as my home page on my hp?!)HAHAHAHAHAHA! 1H'08 dancers ftw!

JAMES BOND!

BOLLYWOOD STYLE?

argh! why is my hair splitting?! (syf perfomance @NLB '09)

acting cute? FAILED!

koutou bao gao thingy. @little india i think!

i'm sorry the pictures all turned the wrong way! i'm too lazy to fix it!
ANYWAY! hoped you liked that!

TO ALL MY OTHER FRIENDS OUT THERE! (no i haven't forgotten about you!)

thank you too, for making my miserable life so much happier and for being part of me. for all the memories, and everything you have done for me. my family, my friends, my enemies, and everyone in the world, the year is coming to an end, as i have this sudden urge to thank everyone! HAHAHAHAHA! i shall just say, i'm gonna start 2011 afresh, i'm gonna have to say sorry if i have hurt you, offended you in anyway, i hope you forgive me!

yeah, to the dancers especially! YAY! i love you guys forever! though we may have our differences and feuds, i still love you all! and let's make SYF'11 KICKASSSSSSSSS!

YAY! i feel happy(: i hope my happiness will infect you too!

OOH long time no blog!
AHAHAHA! i don;t know why i locked my blog but i decided to unlock it.
anyway, didn't post anything so oh well.
let me see where i left off.

okay so coals from the 29th to 1st was quite okay.
it kept raining like damn it the weather sucks.
but delta, wee ming and cheuklam made everything so much fun(:
but honestly, i think i did a horrible job as an instructor!
HAIS!

after coals, i went to malaysia! for 5 days!
stayed at 3 different places.
Meleka, Port Dickson and Cyberjaya!
Had an awesome time shopping, sleeping, watching tv and just doing nothing.
Had glee, selena gomez, taylor swift and a few other artistes on replay on itouch for those few hour long journeys.
Went crazy like halfway cause i think i went mental.
i won't talk about it.. lets just say i got freaked out by my father's good friend who went with us.

Next, STRAIGHT AFTER i came back, got dragged out shopping with algae and yy!
ACTUALLY, it wasn't that bad cause i had amazing fun time with these two!
what with finding the stupid cinderella manicure shop, and then getting my fake mohawks.
plus, yy bought her first pair of heels, i got a pair too from new look. and then algae started whining about not getting one!
and finally we convinced her to get a forever 21 dress!
it was EPIC man! what with at mcdonalds camwhoring and stuff!
YAY! i miss last thursday alrd! Hope we could do something like that soon again!
GIRLS TIME OUT!!((:
thanks algae and yy for shopping with me!
(oh did i mention, some cheekopek went to wink at me while i was on my way home. GROSS TTM)

at night had dinner with calvin and friends and jumbo!
and then we went for bowling.
got strike twice and then lonkang (idk how to spell) 3 times in a row!
am i pro or what!
AHWELL. got scolding by my oh-so-great mum.
WHATEVER. do i look like i give a shit? apparently not.

Oh, and then algae and yy came over the next day too!
to play with make up and dress up and pathetic study date.
LOL! okay, didn;t do much.
we were just trying to be girls thats all!
OR we ARE girls!
you can't touch us! (glee tuneeee)

saturday, was entertaining clifton and natalie.
two annoying children! HAIS!
and then calvin came over and we played saboteur, its an amazing game!
and i finally understood how to play monopoly deal! YAY!
and then he asked me a really idk how to explain question.
he asked me can i give this someone a chance. like is there any hope or spark there?
cause he said he was waiting.
HAIS! i'm going to have to say sorry. and yes, i said no.
thats the way to break a heart isn't it!
well, i know there are girls out there definitely much better than me!
so we'll see...

enough drama there. calvin left yesterday!
sent them off at T1 and saw AUSTINE!
yeah! he's like one head taller now like WTH!
))): just last year we were the same height!
i forgot how guys just shoot up so fast! and soon not even heels will make me any taller!
:/// but caleb is cute as ever!(:
told him to pray for me next year when i'm taking my olevels!
i hope he remembers! he better does!

today was just boring!
had tuition in the morning and afternoon.
after that it was glee and ouran high.
i wish i was an anime character seriously.
then i would be pretty (or i'll ask my artist to make me pretty), and have good figure and all.
and be sweet and charming and stuff like that.
and best of all, it would all be superficial, and i don't have to worry about anything.
i don't have to decide on anything or think about my future.
cause my artist would do it all for me!(:

i wish you are here right now.
and then i will just run to you and tell you i'm sorry.
i will hug you and wish that everything was okay and back to normal.
i would tell you that i miss you.
i miss everything.
but its too late to turn back the clock now..