I really really really love you guys, like seriously.
There's nothing I can say or do to tell you how much I want to be there for you.
I just want all of you to know that after today, I'm going to try even harder still to be the person you want me to be.
I'll commit more to the things we believe and try to bring things back to the way it was before.

Yeah, especially Irene and celine. Talking with you guys about everything an anything made me feel much happier.
As CMI exco, we're gonna try harder still right?
We're not going to be the batch to stop the trend.
We're gonna be the leaders who's gonna make a change.
We won't cry for what we achieved in the end cause that's everything we have done alrd..
There's nothing more we could have done anymore.
So we're gonna put in this extra 110% until the very last drop sweat and tears..

Dadee, I really love you alot too! I just want you to stay strong. Please? For me, for dance, for yourself.

Xiantong, remember nothing is worth your tears and the thing that is worth them, will not make you cry. So please stay strong too. I don't think you'll read this but I've been using you as an example of a good leader and stuff like that. I really dk how to explain, but you can ask Shiri, Junica or whichever juniors I talked too. Then you'll understand how truly amazing you actually are! Despite what anyone else will ever say.

Algae, you know what you mean to me right? I want you to become that crazy self again! The one that I love, the one that's always there for everyone.. the heart and soul of dance and all it's craziness..



I just caught a glimpse of how I look in the mrt glass window, I look horrendous! My eyes hurt like mad, they sting, reminding me again of what just happened. I just feel this sense of sadness and helplessness. I know inshould be stronger than this, those tears were not meant to roll down my cheeks, making me look like some pathetic senior trying to gain sympathy from her juniors. Yes, that's what I keep telling myself. Heck, I even tell people around me. Stay strong stay strong stay strong.

But strength means nothing more than how well you hide the pain right?